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Saturday, September 27, 2008



It is in this age when we stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about ourselves that we didn't know and may not like. We start feeling insecure and wonder where we will be in a year or two, but then we get scared because we barely know where we are now.

We start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that we thought we were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people we have ever met, and the people we have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What we don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as we are.

We look at our job... and it is not even close to what we thought we would be doing, or maybe we are looking for a job and realizing that we are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares us all.

Our opinions have only gotten stronger. We see what others are doing and find ourselves judging more than usual because suddenly we realize that we have certain boundaries in our life and are constantly adding things to our list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, we are insecure and then the next, secure.

We laugh and cry with the greatest force of our life. We feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and we try and cling on to the past with our own dear life, but soon we realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where we are or move forward.

We get our heart broken and wonder how can someone that we loved so much could do such damage to us. Or else we lie in bed and wonder why we can't meet anyone decent enough that we want to get to know better. Or maybe we love someone but we also love someone else too and cannot figure out why we are doing this because we know that we aren't such a bad person. We want to settle down for good because now all of a sudden that has become top priority. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. We begin to think that a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack and for once we would not mind standing tall for that special someone which otherwise we had never thought of until now. We go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with our friends about the same topics because we cannot seem to make a decision. We start worrying about the loans, the money, the future and making a life for ourselves... and while winning the race would be great, right now we'd just like to be a contender!

Every one reading this may try to relate to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Dear friends maybe it will help you all feel like you people aren't alone in their state of confusion as we all are feeling the same way...For this is what we can call as the "Quarter-life Crisis" of our life. And together we will all pass through it successfully.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Check out Plan


I want you to take a look at : Plan

Just came across an innovative site to help Bihar Flood victims. Shows how one can contribute without actually spending anything or being physically present by spending 60 seconds of one's time. Just have to answer simple questions, and sponsors will pay to the NGO on your behalf. Kindly spread the word. (

IF by Rudyard Kipling - THE BEST POEM ABOUT LIFE


IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
// Tells how to deal the most problematic fools and people who believe you to be foolish. So the next time you tell me i am odd, just remember that i believe in these lines and that is the only reason you are safe.//

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
// Well this is one thing i have ample amount in me. I can trust not just me but also all my friends. i always trust that i will do things better for humanity, me and my friends while i trust my friends that they will never think or plan anything that will hurt me. //

But make allowance for their doubting too,
// Whenever you are in doubt just call me. you don't trust me then no need to call me just leave me alone and i will know.//

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
// Common i have been waiting for 19 years for the perfect woman of my life, do i look tired to you. just kidding i have patience enough in games but am extremely impatient while i am waiting for replies.//

Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
// OK nobody's perfect so i do do deal in lies, rather i am heavily involved in lying and deceiving but not in the case of my friends unless its for fun. Also my friends are reminded that i have been lying from when i was eight so i can easily read through your lies but i just do not tell. //

Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
// This is something i can not help about. I know half half the world hates me but then again who cares. I know this for sure that i can never hate anybody even my worst enemy for more than 10 minutes. //

And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
// I do not look good as i am freedom minded person so this was never a problem to keep. Wise talk comes with my high IQ so that can be left alone. //

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
// I just aim never dream. I aim to sleep or eat every chance i get. Just kidding. I always dream big and different. Work my heart out and dream on. //

If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
// Everybody can think so i will leave this here. //

If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
// Well i keep only happiness in my life so triumphs are specially to be enjoyed. Even the ones of others. So party coopers this is the reason i ask for parties :) . I do take disaster lightly as they do not effect me. I can walk pass through every disaster this i know for sure. //

If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
// I desire only to learn how to do this for i cannot bear manipulations and fools or innocents being trapped. //

Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
// This is possible for me only if i have friends to support me. I do not friends to help but to be with me every time such thinks break. //

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
// These are my favorite lines from the poem. This is the way i want to treat the life. I have to take every loss and start again. This is why i liked the computer the best and why i choose computer science. For every time i format computer i know i will find better things to put back. Every time i loose some file i know how to make another better one. //

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
// If i go by my horoscope i will outlast everybody i love so i am already preparing for that. //

And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
// Better to die than live such a life but i can always hold on for others or if i know there is something still left to do or complete. //

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
// I do not change with people and that includes everything. //

Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
// I keep my ways with common people and just keep in touch with kings. It is this desire that makes me roam out. //

If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
// No foe of mine can hurt me for i can take any loss or any failure without being hurt. Then again it is compensated as i am one who gets hurt the most by friends, i am the worst in handling treachery. //

If all men count with you, but none too much,
// I think trying to be friends with everybody i meet, may have brought some of this in me.
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
// I really need this but i am not able to change the happy go lucky attitude in me. Maybe some time later for a reason important enough i may even learn this. //

Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!
// ENCHANTEE isn't it. These last two lines just hit the heart like a bull's eye bullet shot. //

HOPE you people like the poem if not the notes and just a friendly reminder this thoughts were my current and personal thoughts which may change at later date so do not just weigh me by these.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Classroom Thoughts

Okay this article is the noting of thoughts that came to my mind in a free lecture in our college. some of my friends in my college may even remember me writing it up.

A thing came into my mind that day. A River is the start of the ocean. If we take the whole route for a small river we see that a waterfall may become a river and that river would flow around many landscapes to find it's way to the ocean. Thus the river belongs to the never ending mass of ocean itself.

What i really thought from this is that my life looks pretty similar to that of a river. It started with a small beginning. I lived a life which can be said to be complete in itself, making my way through the various phases of life, going past the obstacles, crushing through the difficulties. In all finding the easiest path to reach the end which may be the ocean or the death (For people who hate death talk i would like to state a Chinese proverb that i found in a war book, here - ""Think of Death while living and notice Danger while Safe.""). Every day a live and every moment i flow, the days of the ocean come closer. The time is coming when the final battle shall come before the ocean or even the mainframe of the society (crossroads of the rivers.).

The battle that i talk about would be the one to change the society in its completeness, to make a bit of change in every river that i meet. In the end we have all been the part of the society that we have taken from and given so much to. For while we are flowing everything that we may gain may it be knowledge, success and even failure in the life we will be ending in the same waters. The change i talk is not political or religious as some may think but philosophical or rather theological in nature.